The Art of Catastrophe: A Vexed Heart
"The art of the catastrophe calms me down." 
After Beijing, Orlando Jones returned to Jinzhou and had an anxiety attack. For Orlando Jones it was always the lowest point to come back to this place. It was a sad place, a low place; a place where the plot was not so much misplaced (lost) but abandoned. She thought that she had abandoned herself. She did not know why. It was tragic to be there, to find no joy in anything. Perhaps it was just a stage, like finding something beautiful in the everyday, the ordinary, taking joy in little things and one day it was just lost and one saw bleakness in all those places and one is unbearably sad. It was a tragedy, or maybe as the character played by Geoffrey Rush in Shakespeare in Love said, "It is a mystery." Orlando Jones's body became toxic. She could not eat nor sleep nor find joy in anything. Something happened to her in Beijing, or perhaps in her childhood.
de-pressed adj. sad and without enthusiasm
de-pression n 1 being depressed; low spirits